Dinner

you were famished.
I brought you a plate
slip slip it slipped down your hands
in pieces, in a spate

my heart broke
almost a stroke
it was the only plate I had
so I chipped a piece
right out my heart
and made it better, a tad

done with the meal
you wiped your face
and felt better, I guessed

the food was just not good enough
you said to me
and left.
A.S.

Our Movie

Looks like our movie
just ran out of film
I could’ve sworn I had some spares
but now, the chances seem slim
 
Been trying for hours
to get the reel fit, back inside
The lenses have turned dusty
& the projection isn’t very nice

The gears have turned rusty too
What worth really, is to repair?
Guess, it’s time to find something better
although, this one truly was rare

Even tried turning the wheels anti-clock
Guess, I messed it up even more
Clearly, past is not where we live now
so I reckon, I’ll just toss it out the door

Looks like our movie
just ran out of film
My favourite,
saddest movie of all.
I could’ve sworn I had some spares
but the chances seem slim

So I’ll take a match
And burn down our theatre hall.

A.S.

One small room (covid diaries)

one small room as wide as the world
next to a stack of books, old and new
soaring fever highs, phosphorescent sky  
amid four walls made of powder blue

thoughts cynical flying volatile
I couldn’t tell if you’re really here
hallucinations, in the dead of the night
illusions seeming frighteningly real

sulphur raining down my face
a moment of rest is lost, never found
a small magic sound box on my bed-post
humming softly, keeping me sound

feigning life like Johnsy of Greenwich
this little green life turning ochre next to me
It’s not going anywhere, no not on my watch
It will thrive again, tall, bright and free

It can’t be how I’m doomed
the heavens must be maddened
Indeed I cannot deny I’ve felt things
I probably wish I hadn’t

One small room as wide as the world
amid four walls made of powder blue
so many have left already, it’s a sham
I cannot afford that, I’ve got so much to do

21/04/2021

A.S.

Farewell (to my grandmother)

And so my grandmother
I bid you farewell
As you leave and climb up
Up the heavenly stairwell

I may not fit in your lap anymore
I’ll always be your child
For whom you prayed & prayed & prayed
And (finally) brought Back to life

I’ll miss those big innocent eyes
Under the plastic frames
And how you’d want to talk
But couldn’t remember my name

I hope wherever you are
You’re at peace and Finally unrestrained (& finally not in pain)
For my dear, one day or another
I know, I’ll see you again.

A.S.

Knew

Dark eyes messed up hair
Swinging, back and forth chair
Heads turn, eyes meet
Doubtless insecurities
I didn’t notice you
I lie, but it’s true
The air between, turned blue
And that was the moment
I knew.

Cold air, on my face
Eyes closed, head dazed
You walk, past me
I turn, only to see
You turn, your head around
Catch me, without a sound
Your sins were due
And that was the moment
You knew.

A.S.

I am glad ( For all those who grew apart)

I am glad 

For your stone cold words

They made me realise

You’re not a part of my world. 

Though I will remember you

Keep you in my heart

As how you were when we met

Not as when we grew apart

I will leave now as I thank you

For how you ripped my heart to shreds

Finally I am free

As I pull and snap the thread

I am glad 

Of how different you’ve grown

But since I never did

You are no longer my home.

A.S.

Rainchecked

I guess we both knew what would become of us
During those horrid times
Horrid for them, not you and I
Those were the best of crimes.

Dark were the nights and so was the day
The fastest run I had
Star-crossed and doomed forever
But it ended somewhere sad.

I still remember that great sprint
Which lands me to hilarity
As clock is ticking, I know quite well,
I’m further gaining clarity.

The dark days and the dark nights
They’re still my happy place
I do remember the hazy grass
On which you set the pace.

So I came back around
And so did the dark.
The clouds pass by too sometimes
But you rainchecked the eleventh hour.
A.S.